Screw everything.

At least I have a roof over my head, a place to sleep and food to eat.

even if life tries to fuck me in the ass again, I'm not going to whine like a pussy.

Like I said earlier, c'est la vie.

Hmm. I am actually updating this long-forgotten space. I am pretty sure that you can tell that sheer boredom led me to create this post.

Currently, I have to admit that my thoughts have been a little irrational lately. My mind has been conjuring its own little magic show and actually it drove me dead insane. Luckily I managed to pen it down on paper, or god knows what might happen to me. I guess I'm just the type of person who never stops pondering and thinking about life and the things that surround it.

Anyway, I must admit that part of the mental frustration in my mind is not due to the overwhelming thoughts.. but it was about something even more irrational.

Let's just say that I was particularly attracted to someone whom I went to the same school with. Needless to say, I had a an infatuation-type of admiration towards this person. I really admired him until he found himself a girlfriend.

At that moment, I just.. remained stoic.

It was only until I reached home did I let the tears fall from my eyes. I must say, I was pretty much taken aback by what I witnessed. The sight of them being happy together disgusted me.

It was only after crying non-stop for a few hours and playing Breakeven.. did I realise that I had to remain optimistic.

He's just a boy.. who found the one he wants.

I guess the right one for me will come sooner or later.

I guess it's a lesson that I learnt.

I can't have silly crushes on people whom I have no chance of getting together with.

How ironic.

I created this blog to voice out opinions on real-world matters, but here i am dwelling about my personal life.

I guess c'est la vie.

So that is all for now.

A person's thoughts - usually more noisy, more perplex, or even more intelligent than the words that come out of his/or her's mouth. Hypothetically speaking, the thoughts and the mind of someone can lead to the better understanding of someone's character and true personality than verbal contact, if one's thoughts could be expressed. Therefore, it brings us here to the purpose of why I created this blog. By expressing thought in the form of a web diary, it would possibly relief myself of the burning questions and uncertainties inside my mind with probable discussion topics like society and anti-homosexuality, etc. I do not know why I need this, but let us just say that this is much better than wasting my time reading queer Harry Potter fanfiction on a regular basis.